8/27/2023

today has been decent, but i feel like i'm losing so much time this summer. i wake up at noon, and lose the whole day on my laptop coding. every once in a while i will work on commissions too, but i haven't been outside in at least a week now. i've barely even seen the sunlight. i keep my lights off with my blackout curtains covering my windows. i don't really move from the spot i have under my loft bed, i even sleep under here. it's not that comfortable. it's just convenient. next week class starts back up, so hopefully it puts a bit more of a schedule into my day. i always dread summer, because it's so much easier for me to fall into these dissociative and fuzzy states where i don't feel quite real and everything turns to mush. i had a really bad one at the beginning of the summer where i just zoned out until noon and then slept until midnight. it was miserable, i'm glad i have this website to hyperfixate on now.

on a lighter note, i've been playing candy box 2 recently. it's a lot of fun! i just unlocked the desert fortress and the castle. i'm working on getting the PLAY stones, right now i have P and L. i took a break for the night, though. the puzzle for the P stone fried my brain.. (╥ᆺ╥；)