I recently came across my old Bandcamp page from 2013, when I was six and a half years old. My dad is a musician, so he helped me record my first album, although I played all of the instruments and sung it by myself (as you can probably tell! lol). Here is the first two songs from the aforementioned album.

I feel embarrassed about anything I say or do, even online, I just imagine everyone is judging me, or thinks everything I do is stupid. Sometimes I am so distracted by the anxiety of others percieving me that I physically cringe or shudder and I can't even focus in class!!!! It sounds so vain to say because obviously no One is really noticing me...Except sometimes they might...And I bet they just think i am a FREAK

I've just started working on this website again for the first time in a year or more! I've mostly been clearing up what I've already written, fixing my About section and other poorly articulated blurbs around my page. I feel a little bit embarrassed about what I've written on here, but I'd still love to continue filling my website with new ideas. I recently started back on my ADHD medication again, and it helps with my productivity so much. I hadn't finished a drawing in months, but I managed to do so within a week of starting vyvanse again! I also made a Gallery page to display my art, and I changed up my blog page, too! With this blog page, I don't have to make a new file for every individual entry.

As for how I've been, I'm managing the best I can! My physical and mental health is poor, but I set up a therapy appointment for the first time in a few years, so I'm hoping that will go well. I turned eighteen last month, so now I have to set up all of my appointments by myself. (I voted for the first time, too!) I have a lot of appointments, from my dentist and orthodontist, to all of my medical ones. I have hypermobile-Ehlers Danlos, which causes a wide array of issues, from chronic pain to neurological problems, that require several different specialists to manage. I have physical therapy occassionally to help strengthen my muscles, especially around my hips, where my joints are the loosest and hurt the worst. Hip replacements and arthritis run in the EDS side of my family, and I'll probably need to get mine replaced when I'm older, too. I'm seeing a gastroenterologist for the first time next week as well, because I've been extremely nauseated every single morning for the past year or so. I woke up at 7am to vomit six or more times this morning, and on days that I don't throw up, I'm still spending the first few hours of my day stuck in bed from the nausea.

On a lighter note, I went to a Halloween concert for my birthday. I only really went to see Bejalvin's 100 gecs cover set, the other cover sets were for bands like Limp Bizkit and Korn, and I don't really listen to numetal. Costumes were mandatory, so I went as Fluttershy, and a few people complimented/recognized my costume there, which made me really excited. I made the skirt and wings by myself, with the assistance of my mom. I will attach a photo later on! In Japanese class, my teacher was asking everyone what they were going to be for Halloween, and I was so mortified to say Fluttershy, but surprisingly, my classmates reacted very positively. One girl even asked to see my costume, but I forgot to ever show it to her (oops!) I went trick or treating, too. I've been every single year since I was born, but I'm probably getting a bit old for it by now! Where I live, it's usually super cold on Halloween. Last year, it snowed!

I hope everyone has been having a good year! I am feeling super excited to continue adding to my website again